Recap of Day 11: Expectations are a bitch! This is where I had an aha! moment yesterday. Now stay with me. Everyone says that our illnesses or issues (whether they be physical, mental or emotional) are a manifestation of energy (thoughts, words, fears, etc...). Well, I have definitely had my share of fears over the years. Yesterday I was having "HUGE" expectations of different situations: myself, people in my life and things. Which is connected to fear of things NOT working out. I was feeling myself totally exhausted and consumed with my expectations that "X" needed to take place or happen. Which either never did or didn't work out the way I thought it should. I finally was so stressed out that I meditated and somehow by a miracle I completely blissed out (that's only happened a few times for me).
Of course, I always feel good after a meditation, but yesterday was different. It was only for a few seconds, but it was real for me. It was then I felt a shift or maybe as my friend calls it...a download or upgrade to my model. Then throughout the day I truly had the patience I had hoped for. I was still having expectations though, but it finally last night it hit me...If I released all my expectations and just went with it...I could heal myself. I literally could feel the cords I was juggling being cut (my total control issues - having an expectation of how things should be). The second I released this...I released whole lot of shit. I don't want anyone to expect anything from me...why in the hell would anyone or anything feel any different about my expectations of them. BINGO...freedom of a new sort. And for anyone (including myself) who I ever had any sort of expectation...I am forever sorry!
Day 12: Now today's intention is to have no expectations and just be. I have such a visual mind that I often can visual things how "could" happen. Example, I imagine every morning with my cup of celery juice waiting for me. However, I woke up this morning and forgot my celery juice at the shop. So now what? I made myself a cup of hot water and lemon. "Go with the damn flow Amanda!!! You won't die from things being "shaken up" a bit." And here I go...
Fact: How does clarity come from a cleanse of any sort? I am still searching for more scientific papers, but came across this absolutely fascinating article on how the brain actually detoxes itself, I will keep digging... But until then here's another great read from the Huffington Post on the benefits which lightly touches on this fact: "Switching to an organic plant-based diet allows cells to work optimally to re-establish efficient internal messaging and manufacturing processes, allowing the mitochondria to create energy without having to fight off a plethora of free radicals and inflammation, and reducing some of the impediments to proper DNA functioning."